<L0cke> ok... i just set lanzers car on fire
<L0cke> seriously :]

...

hee.


This is all my fault~ I brought this all upon myself.

I know for a fact now that I have carpal tunnel syndrome. I may have to quit moderating Gaia Online because of this -- even though I do not want to. My right hand is extremely weak -- I can barely hold a pencil. Because of this, my handwriting is very, very sloppy, and so are my drawings... yeah, completely unrelated, but still.

It's very hard to do anything involving holding onto things -- like grocery bags, stuff like that. ~_~ This is going to make me feel even more useless than I already do, and I'll have to take a break from moderating because of this -- I know I will. Moderating Gaia is one of my driving forces to staying sane, as insane as that may seem. I thrive off of helping others and things like that. Not being able to do as much will crush me emotionally, like a little bug.

Having carpal tunnel also means that I will have to take more pills, and possibly have more surgery -- on my wrist/hand. That is fucked up .. I don't want to have to do that.

I just had to stop typing in the middle of this because my wrist is going numb. It's very hard to type now. ._.

So I think I'll go watch some TV and revel in my stupidity.